Monday, April 20, 2009

On Being Ready

I overheard my mother and grandmother talking years ago, presumably about my weight. Nana said, "Don't worry, she'll do it when she's ready." Nana was always wise but who knew it would take until I was 39 years old to truly be ready.

What makes it different this time? I've been thinking a lot about this because it really does feel different this time. Losing weight when you're not ready is impossible. Will power will only get you so far and "white knuckle weight loss" does not last.

I've had a shift in my thinking, I suppose. After all these years, I finally believe, really and truly believe, that food isn't love, comfort, companionship or respect. Food can be pleasure, yes, but it is not the only source of pleasure this life has to offer. Food is fuel, nourishment. Food holds no power, it's just food. I'm in charge of what happiness I get from this life. I'm responsible for my contentment, I'm accountable for the decisions I make regarding my health and fitness.

Food is not the answer to life's big, scary questions. For the first time in my life I'm not afraid to feel the feelings, to find those answers. There's a freedom that comes with not being afraid and that's when I knew I was ready.

1 comment:

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