Friday, December 18, 2009

Friday Weigh-In

In response to my recent Expectations post Seattlerunnergirl asked~"How'd you get from the place where you could let go of the way others' reactions to your actions didn't drive your behaviors anymore?"

Really good question but one that's not so easy. For me it's been part of the process. Before I could make any changes I had to come to terms with the underlying reasons for my emotional overeating. I had to learn new coping skills and at the same time accept that while the underlying causes were not my fault, the responsibility for letting myself get to 277 pounds was my own.

It's hard to explain. I still get annoyed with my father during the 5-minute bi-monthly phone call but putting fork to mouth would have no impact on him whatsoever. NONE! I've realized that it is my choice how I react in these situations. I can choose to binge or I can choose to feel it, process it and let it go. Accepting responsibility for my actions with food has made what other people think mean so much less. I think this is part of the reason why the incident with the cake was something to laugh off and not something I'd have to work off on the treadmill the next day. I hope this made sense and thanks for the great question!

On to the weigh-in...drum roll please: 183.5 half a pound gone just in time for the holidays. Speaking of which I'm not that worried about gaining any fat pounds during the holidays. I know that there will be a jump on the scale due to bloat from carbs and Champagne but if I keep up with my juicing and exercise the impact will minimal and short lived. With everything, I'm trying to keep a balanced approach. Don't over do it, but still enjoy it!

I've got the girls coming over for a pre-holiday brunch in about an hour so I better get to it. I hope you all have a beautiful weekend and be safe out there.


3 comments:

  1. Glad I came across your blog. I am inspired by the journey you have made and the progress you continue to make.

    I have been looking forward to the humour in your posts as well as the inspiration.

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  2. Thanks for answering my question! I am working on knowing and understanding the reasons why I eat for anything OTHER than hunger. After a lot of years of work and some great therapy, I'm realizing that NOW, it's mostly out of habit. So, now to breaking the habit...

    Enjoy your holidays!

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  3. Enjoyed your description of the "cake incident" and particularly your mention about not using food to deal with an emotional problem. Thank you !

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