If you have been reading this blog for any length of time, you know that I have overeating issues triggered by emotional stress and you also know that, as a rule, I do not do well with change. When we adopted Tally the focus of my life totally changed. I fell into depression, not so much because of the dog, rather mourning for my life as it had been. I diagnosed myself with post-canine depression.
I relied on eating to get me through. I'm not talking fast food binges or M&M's in the couch cushions (though I do cop to the occasional checkout counter Twix bar) but eating too much, too often out of stress. Not junk, real food, most often healthfully prepared by me, but too much of it. Also too much wine, too much dark chocolate and too much caffeine. I was having trouble sleeping. When I'm overly stressed I get that mind racing thing that can keep sleep away for hours. Then came the back injury, that just exacerbated everything else that was going on.
If you're reading this blog, you know exactly how rotten it is to have to lose weight that you already lost. How disheartening it is when all your pretty clothes start feeling too tight and you start relying on your loosest fitting things so you can hide. Ugh, sick of living in my yoga pants! So I stressed about that, too, and for awhile there I didn't know how I was going dig myself out.
Then came the blog post that changed everything. Ann Marie at CHEESESLAVE posted about how she kicked her wine and chocolate habit through the use of amino acid supplementation. As I was reading, I knew it was exactly what I needed to read at exactly the right time. Have a read of her post, it may be of help to you, too.
I did some more reading on amino acids for depression, anxiety, food cravings and pain (I still have twinges in my back, hip and legs post injury.) I ordered GABA, DLPA and tryptophan (I already take a B complex, vitamin D and cod liver oil every day.) The package from Swanson was waiting for me when we returned from our trip. I started taking the supplements immediately, GABA 500mg 3x/day along with the DLPA 500mg 2x/day and the tryptophan one hour before bed.
GABA is a miracle supplement, they should put it in the water supply, I'm not kidding. I'm on day 10 of no caffeine/sugar/chocolate/wine/processed wheat and I'm smiling. No more stress eating, no more road rage, no more unconscious cuticle picking until my fingers bleed, no more snapping at Rob and Tally at the drop of a hat, no more racing night brain, I drop off easily and stay asleep. I've become as serene and go with flow as this Type A Virgo control freak can be and it's awesome. The best thing is, no more (emotional or physical) cravings for chocolate, caffeine and wine.
I won't stay off coffee, wine and chocolate forever, that would be unreasonable. But like Ann Marie put it so perfectly, " I love wine and chocolate. I will continue to enjoy them. On occasion. Now I’m free to indulge when I want to — and not on a daily basis because I can’t help myself."